Anyone else freeze when trying to code without a tutorial?

Try making a tiny program that uses just one thing from the tutorial. Pick a problem you can describe in a sentence, then work out why that concept might help solve it.

When you get stuck, look up the specific piece you need rather than restarting the whole video. Having to decide what to write is different from recognizing it when someone else writes it.

Go way smaller than the apps in the videos. Even printing a little triangle of asterisks can take some figuring out when nobody is supplying the steps. That struggle is practice, not evidence that you're incapable of learning.

Videos can be awkward reference material. A written guide or documentation is much easier to search when you forget a bit of syntax. Notes in your own words can help too.

That said, having notes handy doesn't replace writing code. Use them as a reference while you try to solve something, not as another thing you have to memorize first.

For web development, take a simple page and describe what a user can do on it. What does each button do? Where does a link go? Then try to recreate those behaviors from your description.

That gives you a concrete target without following the original coding steps. Keep the finished project around so you can search your own code when you run into a similar problem later.

Knowing individual concepts and combining them are different challenges. If each lesson makes sense on its own but a project feels impossible, write down the small steps the project needs and tackle one at a time. Review examples as you go.